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Recent and upcoming Video Games featuring female protagonists, now that we are post-E3 2018

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Hey lovelies!

So now that E3 is over, our lists are made, the Steam Summer sale is full blown and our wallets are begging us for their lives, I thought I’d make a little list featuring some of the recently released and freshly announced upcoming games featuring video games with female leads or with the option of a female lead. Here it goes:

1. Shadow of the Tomb Raider
Publisher: Square Enix.
Initial release date: September 14, 2018
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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2. Ooblets
Publisher: Double Fine Productions
Initial release date: 2018
Platforms: Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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3. Battlefield 5
Publisher: Electronic Arts
Initial release date: October 11, 2018
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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5. In The Valley of the Gods
Publisher: Campo Santo
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: Microsoft Windows & TBA

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6. Control
Publisher: 505 Games
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: Microsoft Windows, PlayStation 4, Xbox One

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7. Last of Us Part II
Publisher: Sony Interactive Entertainment
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4

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8. Neo Cab
Publisher: Chance Agency
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PC

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9. Assasin’s Creed: Odyssey
Publisher: Ubisoft
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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10. The Walking Dead: The Final Season
Publisher: Telltale Games
Initial release date: August 14 2018
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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11. Sea of solitude
Publisher: Electronic Arts
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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12. Wolfenstein: Youngblood
Publisher: Bethesda Softworks
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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13.  Sable
Publisher: Raw Fury
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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14. Dustwun
Publisher: Goon Studios
Initial release date: 2018
Platforms: PC

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14. Afterparty
Publisher: Night School Studio
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: PC

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15. Gears of War 5
Publisher: Microsoft Studios
Initial release date: 2019
Platforms: Xbox One, Xbox 360, Microsoft Windows

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16. Raft
Publisher: Axolot Games
Initial release date: 23 May, 2018
Platforms: PC

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17. Tacoma
Publisher: Fullbright
Initial release date: August 1, 2017
Platforms: Xbox One, Microsoft Windows, Linux, PlayStation 4, Macintosh operating systems

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18. Beyond Good and Evil 2
Publisher: Ubisoft
Initial release date: TBA
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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19. Anthem
Publisher: Electronic Arts
Initial release date: February 22, 2019
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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20. Fallout76
Publisher: Bethesda Softworks
Initial release date: November 14, 2018
Platforms: PlayStation 4, Xbox One, Microsoft Windows

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21: The Long Dark, Wintermute, Episode 3 & 4 (The Sandbox & challenges portion of the game are playable with a female character)
Publisher: Hinterland Studio Inc.
Initial release date: TBH
Platforms: Xbox One, Microsoft Windows, Linux, PlayStation 4, Macintosh operating systems

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Episodic Reviews of Game of Thrones Season 7

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WARNING: SPOILER ALERT, THESE REVIEWS ARE IN DEPTH REVIEWS/COMMENTARIES.

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 1

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 2

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 3

TO BE CONTINUED

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A Woman on the Internet Reviews A Game of Thrones Season 7 Episode 3: The Queen’s Justice

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FULL SPOILER REVIEW AHEAD

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<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 4–> SOON

Last week, Game of Thrones left me feeling angry. The treatment of female character originally written as being strong, witty, capable, completely ruined by men’s perception of what power looks like in the heads and hands of women. I ended up procrastinating, setting aside those reviews/commentaries and watching the rest of the season as a casual viewer. Many time I sat down having in mind finally continuing talking about this seasons, but every time, I procrastinated. We are not whatever today is and A Game of Throne’s finale happened, I watched it, and here I am, sitting, this time with the actual intent to talk about the season that just happened.

So, here goes.

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This episode doesn’t play around the bush, it begins with Jon’s arrival at Dragonstone. There we get a friendly reunion between Jon and Tyrion, Tyrion and Davos meet and as Tyrion pleasantly presents Missandei to them, she means business and is quick to welcome them, but also ask them to disarm. Jon and Davos are bummed, but it’s to be expected. I did get a little anxious at Jon giving his sword away, considering that things aren’t known to go too smoothly in Westeros, and Daenerys isn’t exactly the friendliest of person, nor someone who is known to keep calm – at all. Davos sparks a conversation with Missandei about her place of birth and she…well she smiles at him, and goes on right her merry way because; who is this white man, again? You’ve got to love Davos, but this made me giggle. Missandei doesn’t have time for any white man’s foolery.

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As they make their way to Dragonstone’s castle, Tyrion and Jon walk side to side, catching up (sort of) on the time that has passed and things that have happened before, and since. Tyrion asks about Sansa and then asks if she misses him, to which Jon only replies with the most beautiful side eye of all side eyes. Tyrion foolishly believes that this is his cue to tell Jon that his marriage with Sansa was never “consummated” aka he never raped her, to which Jon replies all that can be replies “I didn’t ask.” The conversation continues, there are many things I could go into, references to Ned’s and Robb’s demises, “Things don’t go well when Starks go South” (AIN’T THAT THE TRUTH), and as Jon replies that he isn’t a Stark, motherfucking Drogon decides to make the guests feel real welcome and flies right above them all, causing Jon to shit his pants.

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Higher up, also at Dragonstone, Varys approaches a pondering Melisandre, who is hiding from Jon. Melisandre explains that her work here is done, that she has DRUMS ROLLS brought ice and fire together, and that her time here is coming to an end. Although she says that she will be going to Volantis, Melisandre lets Varys knows that she will be back as she has to die in Westeros, and so does he. She leaves him with what almost feels like a prophecy of some sort. A part of me is glad to know that she will be seen again, considering the role her character has played. She is overlooked, her prophecies are still in the making. As Varys looks on, a single Greyjoy boat can be seen approaching Dragonstone.

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Going back down, in the castle, a meeting fans have waiting six whole seasons is happening: Jon Snow and Daenerys Targaryen, meeting at last. Let me preface this by saying that although this meeting absolutely does not go as well and nicely as fans would have hoped, this has become one of my favourite Game of Thrones scenes of all time with probably the absolute funniest Game of Thrones lines of all time. And I mean meme worthy, this shit was all over my feed until the release of the next episode, it was fucking ridiculous. Missandei goes on to list all of Daenerys’ titles, it’s annoying, it’s taking forever, and we’ve heard all this a million times by now. By the time it’s Jon Snow’s time to be introduced, Sir Davos the motherfucker has forgotten that this was his one job and simply says “This is Jon Snow, he’s king in the north”. I laughed, paused the episode, laughed and then had to take a breather at how ridiculous this shit was. Good one, HBO, good one.

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The scene that follows is a beautiful one albeit a frustrating one. Daenerys welcomes Jon warmly, until she realises that he isn’t here to bend the knee and swear loyalty to her. She apologizes for the crimes of her father, Jon acknowledges that, but that isn’t why he is here and he refuses to give away his title, or give the north to her. As he attempts to call for Daenerys’ and Tyrion’s faith and trust, Daenerys makes it clear that she does not believe him nor trust him, and although I am no fan of her, “I’ve been sold, I’ve been chained an betrayed, raped and defiled, do you know what has kept me going all these years in exile? Faith. Not in any god, not in myths and legends, in myself. In Daenarys Targaryen.” It is a beautiful speech, a beautiful reminder of Daenerys’ character, of what she has gone through, what she embodies as a female character, her ability to be empathetic but also cruel, her ability to rise from the ashes, figuratively and metaphorically. But Jon’s response, although short, is a beautiful reminder that none of this matters ultimately, if nobody can work together to defeat the death that is coming to get everyone, regardless of family names. Davos, then, attempts to help convince Danaerys of at least Jon’s capabilities and achievements, gets so fired up he’s nearly hushed quiet at how damn proud he is and makes us feel of Jon and all that he has gone through. Before they jump at each other’s throats through, Varys enters the throne room and Daenerys ends the conversation so she can be told about the failure of the Greyjoys at the hand of Euron.

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Following this, we quickly move to Theon being pulled out from the water. There, he tells everyone that Yara was taken, but by being alive, also telling them that he has failed Yara, that he couldn’t, or rather, didn’t attempt to save her. Failing his sister for the second time.

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In King’s Landing, we watch as Euron enters the city, with Yara, Ellaria and Tyene dragged behind him. He presents them, but mainly Ellaria, as gifts to Cersei. Cersei agrees to an alliance, makes him friend to the crown, and as she also accepts being given as a reward to him, says that it is only to be done after the war has been won (I see what you’re doing girl). Jaime makes it clear that he doesn’t like Euron, but Euron makes it even clearer, and actually asks for sex tips from Jaime on how to fuck Cersei, right there, in the Throne room. Bit baffled, I won’t lie.

The scene is an annoying scene to think about, especially considering what comes after. Now, what Cersei ends up doing with Ellaria and her daughter Tyene isn’t something I wasn’t expecting. Cersei has been shown to be one of the more cruel character in the Game of Thrones story (some book characters give her a bit of a run for her money) but it’s hard to see what the showrunners have done of characters like Ellaria, and The Sand Snakes, amazing female characters, how they have been ruined, and how easily they are being killed off considering how important they are to the original story, but simple it was for whatever representation we received from getting a few women of color in the show to be ruined and written off. Cersei, reminiscing of Marcella’s death, kisses Tyene with the same poison and, since they are both chained at face to face but out of reach, sentences Tyene to die and Ellaria to watch her daughter’s death, watch as her body rots, remaining alive in that cell for the rest of her life. I can hardly think of a crueler death. But thinking back it’s not hard to sympathize with Cersei’s need for revenge due to Marcella’s murder. She is a mother and Marcella was, unlike Joffrey, even more innocent than Tommen, she was good, and she was nothing like Cersei. So, although the character of Ellaria was completely trashed and ruined by the creators of the show, in the context of the show (and the show alone) I can sympathize with Cersei’s reasoning (even if: fuuuck).

 

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A bit later, Cersei, in bed with Jaime, shows that she has absolutely no fucks left to give and opens the room to her bedroom even though Jaime/her bed are in full sight. She is told that the Iron Bank has arrived and the next scene we are given is Cersei attempted to borrow money from the Iron Bank as well as obtaining their support. She is reminded that she is broke but also reminds them that their investment in slavery most likely isn’t seen in a positive light by Daenerys and that, in the end, it’ll cost them. Cersei promises to pay her debt in a fortnight and I’m just left scratching my head at how she plans on doing that.

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Back on Dragonstone, Tyrion approaches Jon as he is busy bruting about the fact that he is basically a prisoner (not sure what he expected when he refused to bend the knee) and that nobody believes him, including Tyrion. Tyrion and Jon have an important conversation about how hard it is and will be to make people believe in a bigger enemy (bigger than Cersei) that you cannot see is coming for them all, and Tyrion recommends that Jon has for a simpler, smaller thing from Daenerys: Dragonglass. After Tyrion attempts to talk to Dany, Jon joins her outside of the castle, there they talk about Daenerys’ brothers and she points out that Jon lost two brothers too. I was a little confused consider that Jon lost 3 brothers, Robb, Rickon and Bran, who he believes to be dead. Daenerys allows Jon to mine Dragonglass but makes it clear that she does not believe him, which is fine, I guess, but there are dragons in front of you so, I don’t know.

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Switching to Winterfell and my beloved Sansa, we see her basically demonstrate how great of a leader she is even though everyone who watches the show seems to either see her clearly for what she is or hates her beyond every other character in the show.

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Also, I know many people think she is still being manipulated by Littlefinger but nah, watch my girl Sansa playing that game of thrones. There, we finally get another Stark reunion with Bran and Sansa being reunited. This remains quite an odd scene for me considering how emotional Sansa was, and how profoundly cold and apathetic Bran is towards her and during her embrace. It’s hard to see Sansa so emotional which Bran seems not to feel a thing, this isn’t the Stark reunion I was hoping for.

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Bran nonchalantly tells Sansa that he is the Three Eyed Raven and she reacts how anyone would react, by simply responding that she doesn’t know what the fuck that means. He explains that he can see everything that has ever happened and all that is happening in the present, which should be helpful but only seems to be helpful when it’s convenient for the writers of the story. Rather than explaining or giving examples that make sense, help gain Sansa’s faith in his abilities in a…nicer way, Bran tells Sansa about the night of her wedding, the night she was raped by Ramsay, the beginning of yet another nightmare for her. He tells her how beautiful she was, and I absolutely fucking hate that scene and that dialogue. Of all the things that Bran could tell Sansa, reminding her of her rape, of her trauma, her abuse, regardless of whether Bran is still Bran, is cold, is traumatic, is wrong. As Sansa leaves the Godswood, she stops herself from looking behind her multiple times as if almost afraid of Bran.

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At the Citadel, seems Jorah is completely cured and I guess that’s nice?

The episode ends with two things. At Casterly Rock, the Unsullied lay siege to the castle, but they do so far too easily which worries Grey Worm (as it should), and it turns out to be a trap. Euron’s fleet arrives (such timing) and begins to destroy the Targaryen ships.

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The army they expected to fight turns out to actually be down south, attacking Highgarden, they slaughter the Tyrells, and the episode ends with a wonderful scene of a conversation between Jaime and Olenna Tyrell. Olenna asks Jaime how he plans on killing her, and Jaime explains that after many long talks with Cersei, who originally wanted to truly hurt Olenna, Jaime was able to convince her to kills Olenna in a kinder, faster and simple way: poison. This is a great scene to watch as we know that Olenna is responsible for the death of Joffrey, it’s deeply satisfying that she is given a gentle death, tricking them all until the end. As Olenna swallows the last drop of her poisoned wine, she tells Jaime that she was the one to kill Joffrey and not Tyrion. As Olenna attempts to make Jaime realise that Cersei will be the end of everyone, including himself, Jaime defends her, making it clear that he continues to be blind to the true nature of his sister. The episode, ending with the realization, ending with Olenna asking Jaime to tell Cersei that it was her so that she knows that she couldn’t get true revenge on her son, and that is a beautiful ending. Although Olenna’s death is one I wasn’t looking forward to considering a number of amazing scenes and dialogue we are given through Diana Rigg’s beautiful acting, this was an amazing way to go.

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7.5/10 – This was a better episode, but it is its ending that helped me forget about the previous episode’s ending, the complete disrespect within the Dorne storyline. Olenna’s badassery and Diana Rigg’s superb acting all throughout the show has been an absolute pleasure, and I will miss her greatly.

<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 4–> SOON


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A Woman on the Internet Reviews The Lion’s Song Episode 3: Derivation

 

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 2: ANTHOLOGY

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 4: CLOSURE – SOON –>

Once in a while there are some games that add unexpected layers to their stories.

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Although the subjects in The Lion’s Song: Derivation were interesting and important ones, I was ultimately distracted and touched by a demonstration of respect and a diversity of experiences that I, even if I have to repeat myself, was truly unexpected, but that I welcomed with very open arms.

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In Derivation, we follow the Story of Emma, a mathematician, who, although when the story begins experiences a tragedy of her own, right away sets to enter a famous and respected club of fellow mathematician and like-minded thinkers. Due to being a woman, Emma is laughed at, her role and place as a woman are reminded to her and her capacity to think critically are doubted, if not denied altogether. Of course, following in the footsteps of interesting characters that The Lion’s Song’s studio Mi’pu’mi Games has given us thus far, Emma does not stop there. She decides to dress as a man and finish the equation the men have so far been unable to complete, to prove herself not only as a Mathematician but a Mathematician who also happens to be a woman.

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But Emma’s struggle and inner turmoil do not solely revolve around her many attempts to enter the club, or to prove herself to who she sees as who should be her peers. She also struggles with her personal loss, her grief, and confusing feelings she experiences in regards to who she is, feelings triggered by her disguising herself as a man day after day, going by the name of Emil, a name that, depending on the game you play, she feels fits her just as well as Emma or maybe even more.

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The identity of Emma as Non-binary isn’t simply hinted at, it is a core subject of the story, it is something always on the main of the main character and appears in many of the conversations that Emma has with people, something she either cannot hide or doesn’t feel like she has to hide. For the sake of truly respecting the character and ultimately non-binary folks in general, I will refer to Emma with They/Them for the rest of this review considering that, in my playthrough at least, Emma is as much Emma as they are Emil, neither male or female, or perhaps both, maybe simply sitting in the middle, or entirely out off the box.

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I have asked the followers of A Woman on the internet, specifically non-binary/genderfluid/agender folks, how they would define or describe those “identities” (I put this in quotes since a lot of people don’t see it only as an identity but simply who they are). The general responses revolve around comfort and simply not sitting in either box marked “woman” or “man” but also not necessarily in the middle, some connect to femininity more on one day and the next day will feel some other way, some reject the notion of man or woman and simply exist as the human being that they are, however, the general person might want to define them.

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In many instances though, such as the one that I saw while playing The Lion’s Song: Derivation, was that some people might connect more to one thing more than the other, such as Emma eventually ending the game as Emil, remaining dressed in a suit, and even though they have expressed comfort as either, Emma chooses to experience life as Emil, as this was the most comfortable way for them to be, the most genuine Emma/Emil. They are many things that I could say about Derivation. I could talk about the casual sexism that Emma experiences when not going about as Emil, but to be quite frank that is not the story that Derivation has left me to be haunted with.

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That is not what I keep thinking about, what truly made me feel, what I’ve learned. There are already stories of women who experience casual racism and the struggles of cis white women in the 20th century, these are not stories entirely new. But Emma’s realization of their own identity as Emil, whether triggered by their loss or by having to dress “as a man” to have their intelligence recognized ultimately I am not sure this matters, Emma is Emil and Emil is Emma and maybe Emil is the truest self, maybe there are no selves truer than the other. What The Lion’s song had given us in this story is something I personally never experienced through another game, not in such a forward way.

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So when I finished the game and an achievement popped up called “non-binary” with the description being: “Prove that there are many possible states and everything is in flux”
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I smiled, and right here and there, studio Mi’pu’mi Games reminded me why I love video games.

10/10: in this third episode of The Lion’s Song, we thought we were given a story of 20th-century sexism and the beauty and art and mathematics, but instead, we experienced a beautiful story of a non-binary person finding themselves and ultimately, finding peace.

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 2: ANTHOLOGY

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 4: CLOSURE – SOON –>

Morocco Trip Update 02/03/2017

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It’s been a while since I’ve reviewed a game, a while since I’ve taken the time to sit down and properly write something, whether it be a review or an update. Over two months ago I created a fundraiser in order to get people to help me get to my grandmother in Morocco, after I was given the news that her health was declining even further, and after I was finally offered information I had been looking for for the past 6 years, like her location (ish, it’s hard to get the address of someone who lives out of the city, out of the grid, and who, well, doesn’t have an address). After two month, the original goal was reached and I was able to purchase tickets. Since then there’s been some complications, the cost of avoiding the U.S. as well as U.S. airspace for my safety, my miscalculation of our budget and how much I underestimated the cost of hotels and riads in Morocco (or is it particular to Rabat, I’m not sure). Since, I’ve raised the goal, but still, I am profoundly grateful to the people who donated, who 100% made this trip possible, who paid for my tickets and so much more, who did so much more than they can possibly understand.

I have been writing, not as much as I hoped for considering the amount of stressed that has claimed home atop of my shoulders, but I am writing. May is still over two months away, and so there is some times left for me to seek a place to stay (as well as start apartment hunting in my own city) and a mountain of others things such as insurances and medication I need to order, purchase and get a green light on in order to travel with overseas, two months is a good amount of time to wrap things up, and at the same time, I will be writing.

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Btw yes, I’m still doing my whole hair in natural state challenge & it’s now been 2 months

As stated, the goal for the fundraiser has been raised and I invite anyone who hasn’t participated yet who still wishes to, to check it out. There is not much left but whatever has been amounted since will help pay for a place for me to stay, and for a lot of papers I’ve had to fill in and get in order to safely travel and be allowed back into Canada. Someone recently asked during my last Q&A what I would do in an instance where there is extra money from the fundraiser, and to be honest, I just want to take my grandmother out for lunch or supper, extra funds or not, as I am hyper aware that these 4 days and a half will be my very last with her.

If you want to participate, share, or anything else, here is the link to the fundraiser.

Much love, Aurelie.

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A Woman on the Internet Reviews MANDAGON

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Ahh the beauty of Indie games. 2016 has been an incredible year for me in terms of Indie games I have had the chance to find and play, both old and recent. The games I have played throughout 2016 had helped remind me time and time again of my passionate love for video games and my never ending search for the next story.

Although released in 2016, Mandagon was the indie game that started 2017 for me, and oh boy was it one hell of a beautiful game!

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Created by developer Blind Sky Studios, a small UK games studio composed of four coffee loving people, Mandagon is a short and free indie, adventure and pixel styled game inspired by Tibetan theology and philosophy, in which the focus is Bardo, the Tibetan word or version for “Limbo”.

In Mandagon you play as a sort of statue or part of a totem, and you explore and climb a sort of temple, in which you are given samples of a story about a man, his daughter, and a choice. Although Mandagon is quite straightforward in its gameplay and purpose, a rather simple and not particularly challenging gameplay of hopping your way to the top and around to access the inside of a temple, the mystery of the story is what will give you the desire to keep hoping, to find out what is on the other side, and, ultimately, what will make you keep thinking about Mandagon even after you are finished with its story.

There are also two other elements of Mandagon that caught my attention and still has it, the aesthetic of the game and its soundtrack. Although simplistic at first glance, Mandagon is an incredibly gorgeous game in which I encourage you to stop at times and observe your surroundings. See how tapestries move with the wind, the birds flapping their winds, and every other sparkle of colour and detail that were a very welcomed surprised for a free game. The soundtrack of Mandagon was also a surprise. A single 22-minute composition seemingly designed for you to meditate your way through the universe, the story and the game, with themes of contemplation and sacrifice. Though available for free on steam at the moment, a digital art book, soundtrack and extras are available as a package for 4.43$ on steam, which I highly recommend not only because it’s awesome, but because I truly believe that Mandagon has too much to offer to be a free game.

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In the hour or so that I spent in its universe, surrounded by its music and its themes or death, life, purpose and sacrifice, Mandagon gave me more than hours and hours long games have been giving me: it gave me an experience.

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10/10 – Will purchase the art and OST package, and would purchase anytime if it means putting my money where it belongs, in the pocket of true artists.

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A Woman on the Internet Reviews The Lion’s Song Episode 2: Anthology

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 1: SILENCE

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 3: DERIVATION–>

A few days ago, Mi’pu’mi Games released their second episode to their The Lion’s Song series: Anthology. Similarly to the first episode, Silence, Anthology follows an artist struggling with their art and with who they are. In Anthology, we follow Franz Markert, a young painter who recently arrived in Vienna, who is looking for a new subject while dealing with, as we found out later, some dark and troubling issues of his own.

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I will be honest, I struggled with Anthology. The game itself is just as beautiful and creative as Silence was, even more so. The Lion’s Song has grown since Silence. In episode 2, you are offered a map of Vienna and a few locations to visit pretty much whenever you like, which was very nice. The game presents the concept of seeing people’s “souls” or their “layers” whichever term you prefer or think fits best, but Anthology struggle with how it presents or sees the women of that episode.

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There are many women physically noticeable/present in the game, but nearly all of them are either entirely in the background, not offered as an option of characters to interact with, almost as if to say that women are not interesting, do not have souls, or no layers. Those that Franz Markert does notice have layers I found to be profoundly shallow. They are shown to us as being either envious of other women, being in love or lustful of men (or simply lustful in general), lonely or distressed, gluttonous or old. Although it is good that women are not portrayed solely as innocent creatures unable of sin, these things are generally attributed to women, and considering that there are only 2 women in the entire game that you can actually interact with, one of which you treat in a very questionable, I found the decision and the treatment of women in this episode particularly disappointing.

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By the second half of the episode, the story of Franz seems to figure out where it truly wants to go, and what the character itself also wants to go. Although at the expense of others, Franz struggles with very real and human things, beyond simply who he is as an artist or who he is as a person, but how his art and his decisions define him, and what it is doing to his well being.

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Franz’s journey is a rough, complex and ugly journey. As his journey went on, a dislike of him grew within him. I realised that what I saw him seeing was not who people were, but rather, what he saw, with all of his ignorant, judgmental and inexperienced self.

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By the end of this episode much of how I felt turned into something else, I saw what the episode was presenting me as a complex character, a character I originally did not like, as a character that wasn’t created to be merely liked. Just as Franz realises, people and the world that we live in has layers, layers we may find simple at first glance, but never truly are. I appreciated that Anthology gave me a character that I did not hold simple feelings for due to the fact that characters should not be simple, they should have layers, and this story does.

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8/10 – Anthology was a great episode. It has complexity and is very well aware of that. The music is lovely, the world and the options it offers were expended. Yet, Anthology made the mistake of placing women in the background, defining them almost as background objects, shallow beings, or guides needed to perfect your art – rather than human beings just as complex as the men of the game. This was, I believe, a mistake, and I am curious to play episode 3.

“Great games don’t have to be big” Absolutely. Some extra info on the series.

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 1: SILENCE

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 3: DERIVATION–>

A Woman on the Internet Reviews Stranger Things Season 1 Episode 3: Holly, Jolly

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EPISODE 4: THE BODY ->

FULL SPOILER REVIEW AHEAD

Note to self: when discovering a really good show that you think your partner will like, refrain from telling him about it because then he’ll check it out and gently nag you to watch the rest of the show with him, resulting in you having to write not one, not two, but ALL OF THE REVIEWS for every single remaining episode. Good job, me.

The opening scene of this episode has now become my ultimate favorite scene, As Nancy gets busy with Steve (that’s his name, right?) We watch as Barbara wakes up in some other place, but, it actually turns out not to be some other place. It is a bit ambiguous but my assumption was and still is that Barbara wakes up in some sort of alternative reality, still in/by the pool, but not where Nancy is. The creature is there and she attempts to run away, which doesn’t work and she is (highly presumably) killed/eaten. Can we talk for a second about the weird lighting in this episode, with night time scenes having daylight coming through the window…but it’s night time? This was very annoying.

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Nancy gets dressed and looks rather sad or disappointed, I can’t exactly pin point what emotion is on her face, gets dressed and leaves Steve’s house, but not before looking around a bit in case Barbara stuck around (you are a terrible friend, Nancy, and this will haunt you for the rest of your life) She goes home and her mother catches her in the act, reminding her that they had agreed on a much earlier time. Nancy is irritable, annoyed, and, again, there is an emotion, something going on with her that I just can’t put my finger on.

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Jonathan wakes up to find his mother talking to Will by herself and explaining that Will is communicating through the dozens of lamps that are in his room. Jonathan seems to think that his mother is doing so badly that she cannot differentiate reality from her imagination, he expresses his concern and presses her to get some sleep, but she doesn’t.

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At Michael’s house the boys are trying to come up with a plan to kill whatever monster is after Will. Lucas brings a pretty impressive arsenal, while Dustin brings an impressive amount and snacks. If you want my opinion, I think Dustin is very underappreciated, snacks are very important, what happens when you get lost in the woods and you’re hungry, huh? Dustin explains that most of the weapons Lucas brought would be completely useless against an actual monster, and reminds them that they have someone with actual powers right there. He tries to ask El to use her powers to make things levitate but she’s not having it because this shit is exhausting, ok? How many nosebleeds do you want this girl to have? Their meeting is cut a little short as the boys have to get to school. But Michael agrees on a time and place for El to meet them at the end of the day.

In school, Steve approaches Nancy who feels like people are staring at her and she asks him if he has told people about what happened the night prior. Steve says that nothing was said, I sipped my tea and it tasted pretty heavy with doubt. When she gets to class Nancy notices that Barbara still hasn’t arrived and asks around to check if anybody has seen her, no one has, and she continues to worry.

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Hopper attempts to bring his search to/into the institute and is turned down, I’m not sure what he was expecting.

In Michael’s home, El is bored out of her mind. She decides to wander through the house, look at the phone and then the TV. The TV surprises and shocks her, she doesn’t seem to completely understand what it is, as if she’d never seen one before. As she flips through the channels, she finds an AD for Coca-Cola and is triggered right back into another memory. Through this memory, we get to learn even more about what was done to El. In one instance she was asked to crush a Coca-Cola can with her mind, and succeeded, getting a smile from “papa”. Breathing heavily, El decides to turn off the TV. It is a very important scene and we will get many of those.

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We return to Joyce who is still at her house and has decided to hang Christmas lights as a way for Will to communicate with her. It’s kind of a scary sight, but is also a beautiful one as we are shown a mother quite simply trying to find where her son is.

Hopper is pretty certain that the missing kid came from the institute and as he watches the tape that was given to him, is even more certain that it isn’t a tape of the night he is trying to investigate. The two other police officers continue to be completely useless. Meanwhile, at that very institute, they are getting ready to send someone into a portal that it into the wall. And that’s sort of that.

El, now in Nancy’s room, is looking around at Nancy’s things. On her face lays all sorts of emotions, perhaps she’s still distraught from her memory from earlier. Perhaps Nancy’s things make her sad or envious, maybe it’s a reminder of what she never had, or maybe it’s a reminder of her loneliness. On one of Nancy’s walls are a bunch of pictures, Nancy as a child, Nancy’s friends, and there El sees pictures of Nancy with Barb and sadness (perhaps even guilt?) takes over El’s face.

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At school, Nancy asks Steve’s friend Tommy aka douche #2 if he saw Barbara leave the previous night. He says no and then they proceed to mock the fact that Nancy and Steve had sex, for some reasons.

The boys are looking for a rock. I can’t remember why. They are wondering how El got her powers through the beauty of comic books. El is still called a weirdo, other boys come by to call Will or whoever really, a “queer”, and Michael gets tripped and falls chin first on a rock. Idk, it’s cute but there’s not all that much about the scene.

Hopper goes to the library where we discover that the librarian isn’t super ok with not being called back after dates. She calls him a dick, he agrees with her, and then they move on to look through newspapers registers to find information about the institute and “the missing kid”. There they find that the institute dealt with all sorts of accusations of child abuse, off experimentations, lawsuits, and in particularly, the disappearance of someone’s daughter.

Joyce is dealing with some unexpected visitor, and comes up with some pretty reasonable explanation for the dozens of Christmas lights hang across her house, it’s surprisingly believable, even cute.  Mike’s mom seems worried and like she truly cares, but as she expresses that to Joyce, Holly sneaks off, led by the lights into Will’s room where something legit creepy happens and the wall attempts to grab her, before Joyce arrives.

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Nancy decides to call Barbara’s mother to see if perhaps she is at her home, but she isn’t, and she never came home that night. Before she gets to really start worrying, Steve and his friends decide to go after Jonathan after they’ve been told that he may have taken inappropriate or creepy pictures of Nancy. As much as I can’t stand Steve and his gang, it was a pretty reasonable reaction considering the level of creepiness, and even Nancy refrains from really stopping them. After Steve rips Jonathan’s pictures and breaks his camera (which made me a bit sad) Nancy notices something on one of his pictures, takes it and leaves.

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As El waits for the boys to meet here she has another flashback, and it is an intense one. In one of the experimentation they did on her, El was ordered to use her mind to kill a cat and she couldn’t do it, wouldn’t do it. She is tend promptly punished, as she screams for “papa”, taken into the small brown room. Before they can close the door, she kills all of the guards, snapping their necks. “Papa” comes back to her, and touches El in a way that may seem as affectionate. She cries under his touch. He carries her and El passes out, as he walks away with her in his arms.

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It is a complex memory that ends when the boys arrive while yelling her name. As the group travels to get to their destination, El asks Mike about his bleeding chin. Mike explains but gets upset at the thought of El thinking of his as weak, but she quickly clarifies that she doesn’t, and that she understands. It’s so incredibly cute I want to cry into my cup of tea.

Nancy, who previously left school in a hurry because she couldn’t get Barbara out of her head, returned to Steve’s house to, well, I’m not really sure why. There she sees that Barbara’s car is still parked in the same spot, and so she goes behind Steve’s house where they were hanging out last night by the pool. She calls out Barbara’s, which I thought was quite odd. What is Nancy thinking? What is she expecting? As she calls out Barb’s name into the woods, something runs behind her and she runs away in fear.

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In Joyce’s house, the Christmas lights go on and leads her into some sort of dresser. There she finds a set of white lights which she uses to communicate with Will. She instructs him to make the lights blink once for yes and twice for no, and the scene that unfolds was truly beautiful and emotional. She asks Will if he is alive, and the answer is yes, but when she asks him if he is safe, the answer is no. Because Will cannot tell Joyce where he is or how to find him, Joyce decides to hang the Christmas lights on a wall and paint an alphabet in order to give Will the ability to truly communicate with her and help her rescue him.

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At the library, Hooper gets a radio call and they quickly rush out. The gang, not too far, watch as multiple police cars rush down the road and they decide to follow,

Joyce, having finished her alphabet, continues her conversation with Will, and this time it is a terrifying scene that takes place where Will tells his mother that he is right there, and that she needs to run. Immediately after, the creature comes out of the walls and it’s freaky as shit. Joyce runs for her life, right out of the house.

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Meanwhile, the boys are still following the cops and they all arrive on scene, where they all find a body in the water, and it is confirmed that it is Will. Mike, in a fit of rage, blows up at El and blames her for Will, claiming that she was supposed to bring him alive, that she lied to them. As El stares at Mike and the look on her face breaks my heart, Mike bikes away.

On his way home, Jonathan runs into his mother. The episode ends with two scenes happening simultaneously. Michael arriving home and hugging his mother, and Jonathan hugging his mother in the middle of the road, as police car’s lights can be seen and heard, bringing some very sad news.

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8/10 – This episode originally started a little clumsy, a little slow, which wasn’t a problem with me at all, but the second half of the episode truly picked up with El’s flashbacks and Joyce’s construction of a way to communicate with her son. There is a lot I could say about the presence of mothers, motherhood, and women in general in the show and the way they shape how emotions are demonstrated and valued in these episodes, but I will touch up on that later.

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EPISODE 4: THE BODY ->

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