How Life is Strange: Before the Storm, Episode 1: Awake Tackles Death, Grief, Depression and Queerness.

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LIFE IS STRANGE: BEFORE THE STORM, EPISODE 2: BRAVE NEW WORLD –> SOON

When Life is Strange was first released back in 2015 I had never heard of DontNod Entertainment, the fact that it seemed so similar to what DontNod Entertainment was doing back when they still produced legit games is what originally made me purchase the game, but I stayed purely for what Life is Strange ended up presenting to me in its first few minutes.

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Life is Strange is a game I have been wanting to talk about ever since it was first released. There are so many subjects and characters within that game that I profoundly empathize with or see as a representation of various experiences I’ve had in my life, or aspects of myself, I will get to it, I’m sure. When Life is Strange’s story reached its end, it has garnished a massive fan based, adults and teens alike had fallen in love with the story of Max Caulfield and Chloe Price, and I absolutely was one of those people. The end of their story raised many questions that DontNod Entertainment gave us sometimes clear sometimes vague answers to: what then? Originally, it seems absolutely set in stone, Life is Strange would not get a sequel, the game was the one and only story taking place through Max, and the fictional town of Arcadia Bay, Oregon. But in June 1st, 2017, images were leaked from the website of a developer called Deck Nine, and everyone learned that Life is Strange was indeed not getting a sequel, but a prequel. Although it felt a little odd to hear that DontNod Entertainment, a developer that gave us such an amazing game, wasn’t going to be the one giving us its sequel, people were excited, but also confused: what could the game be about? What could be possibly be said, shown or given to us knowing the story of Life is Strange, the future of Before the Storm?

Life is Strange: Beyond the Storm was thus released on August 32st 2017, and that evening I returned to Arcadia Bay, knowing that this time, I would follow the story of Chloe Price…and Rachel Amber, the one who seemingly started it all.

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Chloe wasn’t exactly my favourite character of LiS, I’ll be honest. I found her to be bratty, annoying, unnecessary angsty, I struggle to empathize with her, I struggled to like her, I struggled to care. Through the game, I found myself often wondering why Max and Chloe were friends at all, but throughout the game began to realise that Chloe had changed, that she wasn’t the person that Max used to know, that anyone used to know. Although we are given a (quite valid) reason why, my original feeling was difficult to shake off, and by the end of the game I saw Chloe as, almost, sort of a lost cause. There were too many other characters I wanted to care about, and what made Chloe interesting at times, for me, was her relationship with Rachel Amber, a character we never meet in LiS, but only hear of as if she if both myth and phantom. So, I was curious to play Before the Storm, which focuses on Chloe 2 years after the death of her father, but 3 years before the return to Arcadia Bay of Max. I wanted to understand her better, to feel for her as the previous game allowed me to feel for her at the time, towards the end of its story.

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“You don’t deserve to be stuck in a drawer like this”

I was given this, and so much more.

In Life is Strange: Before the Storm: Awake, we follow Chloe in the woods, attempting to sneak into a music venue she is too young to attend. There, although various issues and conversations go down, she meets Rachel Amber for the first time. It is electrifying, as Chloe complains about having a hangover the next day, we are left feeling the same. The first few minutes of Awake have been described as “slow” by many people, but the beginning of the episode focuses on Chloe’s current state of mind, making it more than clear to her that the loss of her father is still painfully fresh for her, that while experience depression, grief, anger towards the loss of her father and emotions of abandonment.

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LiS: Before the Storm introduces a new game as replacement for time travelling: Back Talk

Abandonment was the biggest cause for the clash between Max and Chloe in the previous game, and where I struggled to understand then Before the Storm made me feel a completely different way about both Chloe as well as Max. We learn that after the death of Chloe’s father in a car crash, Max’s parents moved to Seattle and so, she did as well, but for two years Chloe attempted to reach out to her friend for contact, empathy, a connection, this was the time she needed her the most, and in two years, Max never checked on her friend, she left her behind to deal alone with the loss of a parent, and we are only to assume that Joy, Chloe’s mother, did not attempt to experience any of her own loss with her daughter. Nobody tried to connect, and Chloe drowned in her emotions, directionless. When the story begins, Chloe is clearly self-destructive, but she sees her mother’s attempts, her fear of losing her daughter, she is approached by people who aren’t strangers but not yet her friends, who see her not for who she is or could be, but as an angry kid, angry for no reason, and Chloe’s state of mind stop her from caring about others, or about herself as well.

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Rachel Amber brings something into Chloe’s life that Chloe longs for, someone who will make her feel alive, make her feel interesting, cool, make her feel like she isn’t utterly invisible. Throughout the game, Chloe writes letters to Max, letters she does not plan on sending, where she expresses her anger and disappointment towards her friends, and later on, her awe at Rachel Amber, an awe that feels very particular. In LiS, Chloe and Max’s queerness is mostly hinted at, Chloe’s love for Rachel feels more than a platonic albeit deep love for a friend you care about, she expresses awe, pride, as well as jealousy. All the while Max experiences the same awe, pride, and jealousy for the place that Rachel has in Chloe’s heart, a place she wishes she could almost entirely occupy.

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Although there are many ways in which you could play LiS, the romance between Chloe and Rachel, and Chloe and Max is, as I’ve said, mostly hinted at (even if it’s obvious). This isn’t what goes on in Beyond the Storm. Chloe describes a type of relief at Rachel’s sudden appearance in her life.

She describes feeling as though she can do anything when she is with her, and eventually, after many options given to us to straightforwardly flirt with Rachel, the episode ends with the option to confess to Rachel your feelings for her. If you choose to, although Rachel originally turns you down (not because she doesn’t want to, she does, but she can’t) which causes Chloe to have an intense emotional breakdown, feeling yet abandoned, rejected, simply not loved or worthy enough, Rachel ends up confessing to Chloe as well. In that moment where the choice is offered to us, and you tell Rachel that you only see her as a friend, Rachel expresses disappointment, and becomes angry with you nonetheless, once again triggering intense emotions in Chloe.

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The episode’s focus on the life, mental state and pain of Chloe, as well as Rachel, later on, feels far more focused than it did back in LiS. I empathize with Chloe, I felt angry as well as sad with her, I felt her grief and believed in it (as someone who has lost a parent, I truly felt it).

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There is kindness left in Chloe where we are at at this moment in the story. Through dreams that Chloe has of her riding in her father’s car, we see that she is haunted by his death, a mixture of guilt, anger and sadness, and she is left alone to deal with it as the kids in her school go on with their lives, mocking her struggle, and as her mother begins to move on with a man who disrespects her, her pain, and the memory of her father. Chloe doesn’t attempt to fill that hole with Rachel, Rachel is the one who reaches out to Chloe and holds her hand, dragging her where life still lingers.

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But Rachel Amber is not who everyone seems to think that she is. Rachel struggles too, there is an amount of darkness in Rachel, a darkness that isn’t in Chloe, not yet. Both girls struggle with life, struggle with caring, struggle with finding reasons to stay in Arcadia Bay where they hurt so badly, where their lives seem to matter so little, and there is a reason why these conversations and the way they are presented feel so similar to conversations on depression as well as suicide.

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I truly fell in love with Beyond the Storm. Its approach on depression, anxiety, grief, anger, self-destructive behaviour, as well as queerness within teens who are barely figuring out why they feel the way that they do about, well, every aspect of their lives. It completely changed my perspective on Chloe and how I feel about her, it made me care for her, worry, it made me understand, and I was amazing at how much I was given to feel in what ended up being only a single episode.

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Yup, you did

 

10/10 – Life is Strange: Beyond the Storm, Episode 1: Awake deserves incredible praise for continuing the wonderful stories that it has given us previously, and even better. I am incredibly excited to play the next episodes and see what else we will learn of Chloe, Rachel, and their relationship, even if we know, due to Life is Strange’s first story, that there isn’t a happy ending. I also want to take the time to give a huge praise for the soundtrack for this episode which was produced by British and Indie Folk Band Daughter, it was incredibly fitting but set itself apart from the music from the previous game.

 

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I was a bit taken aback at how dark Rachel is, I can’t wait to learn more about her

 

LIFE IS STRANGE: BEFORE THE STORM, EPISODE 2: BRAVE NEW WORLD –> SOON


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Episodic Reviews of Game of Thrones Season 7

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WARNING: SPOILER ALERT, THESE REVIEWS ARE IN DEPTH REVIEWS/COMMENTARIES.

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 1

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 2

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A GAME OF THRONES SEASON 7, EPISODE 3

TO BE CONTINUED

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A Woman on the Internet Reviews A Game of Thrones Season 7 Episode 3: The Queen’s Justice

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<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 4–> SOON

Last week, Game of Thrones left me feeling angry. The treatment of female character originally written as being strong, witty, capable, completely ruined by men’s perception of what power looks like in the heads and hands of women. I ended up procrastinating, setting aside those reviews/commentaries and watching the rest of the season as a casual viewer. Many time I sat down having in mind finally continuing talking about this seasons, but every time, I procrastinated. We are not whatever today is and A Game of Throne’s finale happened, I watched it, and here I am, sitting, this time with the actual intent to talk about the season that just happened.

So, here goes.

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This episode doesn’t play around the bush, it begins with Jon’s arrival at Dragonstone. There we get a friendly reunion between Jon and Tyrion, Tyrion and Davos meet and as Tyrion pleasantly presents Missandei to them, she means business and is quick to welcome them, but also ask them to disarm. Jon and Davos are bummed, but it’s to be expected. I did get a little anxious at Jon giving his sword away, considering that things aren’t known to go too smoothly in Westeros, and Daenerys isn’t exactly the friendliest of person, nor someone who is known to keep calm – at all. Davos sparks a conversation with Missandei about her place of birth and she…well she smiles at him, and goes on right her merry way because; who is this white man, again? You’ve got to love Davos, but this made me giggle. Missandei doesn’t have time for any white man’s foolery.

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As they make their way to Dragonstone’s castle, Tyrion and Jon walk side to side, catching up (sort of) on the time that has passed and things that have happened before, and since. Tyrion asks about Sansa and then asks if she misses him, to which Jon only replies with the most beautiful side eye of all side eyes. Tyrion foolishly believes that this is his cue to tell Jon that his marriage with Sansa was never “consummated” aka he never raped her, to which Jon replies all that can be replies “I didn’t ask.” The conversation continues, there are many things I could go into, references to Ned’s and Robb’s demises, “Things don’t go well when Starks go South” (AIN’T THAT THE TRUTH), and as Jon replies that he isn’t a Stark, motherfucking Drogon decides to make the guests feel real welcome and flies right above them all, causing Jon to shit his pants.

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Higher up, also at Dragonstone, Varys approaches a pondering Melisandre, who is hiding from Jon. Melisandre explains that her work here is done, that she has DRUMS ROLLS brought ice and fire together, and that her time here is coming to an end. Although she says that she will be going to Volantis, Melisandre lets Varys knows that she will be back as she has to die in Westeros, and so does he. She leaves him with what almost feels like a prophecy of some sort. A part of me is glad to know that she will be seen again, considering the role her character has played. She is overlooked, her prophecies are still in the making. As Varys looks on, a single Greyjoy boat can be seen approaching Dragonstone.

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such a pretty sad face

Going back down, in the castle, a meeting fans have waiting six whole seasons is happening: Jon Snow and Daenerys Targaryen, meeting at last. Let me preface this by saying that although this meeting absolutely does not go as well and nicely as fans would have hoped, this has become one of my favourite Game of Thrones scenes of all time with probably the absolute funniest Game of Thrones lines of all time. And I mean meme worthy, this shit was all over my feed until the release of the next episode, it was fucking ridiculous. Missandei goes on to list all of Daenerys’ titles, it’s annoying, it’s taking forever, and we’ve heard all this a million times by now. By the time it’s Jon Snow’s time to be introduced, Sir Davos the motherfucker has forgotten that this was his one job and simply says “This is Jon Snow, he’s king in the north”. I laughed, paused the episode, laughed and then had to take a breather at how ridiculous this shit was. Good one, HBO, good one.

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The scene that follows is a beautiful one albeit a frustrating one. Daenerys welcomes Jon warmly, until she realises that he isn’t here to bend the knee and swear loyalty to her. She apologizes for the crimes of her father, Jon acknowledges that, but that isn’t why he is here and he refuses to give away his title, or give the north to her. As he attempts to call for Daenerys’ and Tyrion’s faith and trust, Daenerys makes it clear that she does not believe him nor trust him, and although I am no fan of her, “I’ve been sold, I’ve been chained an betrayed, raped and defiled, do you know what has kept me going all these years in exile? Faith. Not in any god, not in myths and legends, in myself. In Daenarys Targaryen.” It is a beautiful speech, a beautiful reminder of Daenerys’ character, of what she has gone through, what she embodies as a female character, her ability to be empathetic but also cruel, her ability to rise from the ashes, figuratively and metaphorically. But Jon’s response, although short, is a beautiful reminder that none of this matters ultimately, if nobody can work together to defeat the death that is coming to get everyone, regardless of family names. Davos, then, attempts to help convince Danaerys of at least Jon’s capabilities and achievements, gets so fired up he’s nearly hushed quiet at how damn proud he is and makes us feel of Jon and all that he has gone through. Before they jump at each other’s throats through, Varys enters the throne room and Daenerys ends the conversation so she can be told about the failure of the Greyjoys at the hand of Euron.

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You make it hard for me to like you, Dany

Following this, we quickly move to Theon being pulled out from the water. There, he tells everyone that Yara was taken, but by being alive, also telling them that he has failed Yara, that he couldn’t, or rather, didn’t attempt to save her. Failing his sister for the second time.

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I feel for Theon

In King’s Landing, we watch as Euron enters the city, with Yara, Ellaria and Tyene dragged behind him. He presents them, but mainly Ellaria, as gifts to Cersei. Cersei agrees to an alliance, makes him friend to the crown, and as she also accepts being given as a reward to him, says that it is only to be done after the war has been won (I see what you’re doing girl). Jaime makes it clear that he doesn’t like Euron, but Euron makes it even clearer, and actually asks for sex tips from Jaime on how to fuck Cersei, right there, in the Throne room. Bit baffled, I won’t lie.

The scene is an annoying scene to think about, especially considering what comes after. Now, what Cersei ends up doing with Ellaria and her daughter Tyene isn’t something I wasn’t expecting. Cersei has been shown to be one of the more cruel character in the Game of Thrones story (some book characters give her a bit of a run for her money) but it’s hard to see what the showrunners have done of characters like Ellaria, and The Sand Snakes, amazing female characters, how they have been ruined, and how easily they are being killed off considering how important they are to the original story, but simple it was for whatever representation we received from getting a few women of color in the show to be ruined and written off. Cersei, reminiscing of Marcella’s death, kisses Tyene with the same poison and, since they are both chained at face to face but out of reach, sentences Tyene to die and Ellaria to watch her daughter’s death, watch as her body rots, remaining alive in that cell for the rest of her life. I can hardly think of a crueler death. But thinking back it’s not hard to sympathize with Cersei’s need for revenge due to Marcella’s murder. She is a mother and Marcella was, unlike Joffrey, even more innocent than Tommen, she was good, and she was nothing like Cersei. So, although the character of Ellaria was completely trashed and ruined by the creators of the show, in the context of the show (and the show alone) I can sympathize with Cersei’s reasoning (even if: fuuuck).

 

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A bit later, Cersei, in bed with Jaime, shows that she has absolutely no fucks left to give and opens the room to her bedroom even though Jaime/her bed are in full sight. She is told that the Iron Bank has arrived and the next scene we are given is Cersei attempted to borrow money from the Iron Bank as well as obtaining their support. She is reminded that she is broke but also reminds them that their investment in slavery most likely isn’t seen in a positive light by Daenerys and that, in the end, it’ll cost them. Cersei promises to pay her debt in a fortnight and I’m just left scratching my head at how she plans on doing that.

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There’s not way you can pull this off wtf

Back on Dragonstone, Tyrion approaches Jon as he is busy bruting about the fact that he is basically a prisoner (not sure what he expected when he refused to bend the knee) and that nobody believes him, including Tyrion. Tyrion and Jon have an important conversation about how hard it is and will be to make people believe in a bigger enemy (bigger than Cersei) that you cannot see is coming for them all, and Tyrion recommends that Jon has for a simpler, smaller thing from Daenerys: Dragonglass. After Tyrion attempts to talk to Dany, Jon joins her outside of the castle, there they talk about Daenerys’ brothers and she points out that Jon lost two brothers too. I was a little confused consider that Jon lost 3 brothers, Robb, Rickon and Bran, who he believes to be dead. Daenerys allows Jon to mine Dragonglass but makes it clear that she does not believe him, which is fine, I guess, but there are dragons in front of you so, I don’t know.

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This is a very aesthetically pleasing scene though

Switching to Winterfell and my beloved Sansa, we see her basically demonstrate how great of a leader she is even though everyone who watches the show seems to either see her clearly for what she is or hates her beyond every other character in the show.

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playing you like a violin

Also, I know many people think she is still being manipulated by Littlefinger but nah, watch my girl Sansa playing that game of thrones. There, we finally get another Stark reunion with Bran and Sansa being reunited. This remains quite an odd scene for me considering how emotional Sansa was, and how profoundly cold and apathetic Bran is towards her and during her embrace. It’s hard to see Sansa so emotional which Bran seems not to feel a thing, this isn’t the Stark reunion I was hoping for.

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Bran nonchalantly tells Sansa that he is the Three Eyed Raven and she reacts how anyone would react, by simply responding that she doesn’t know what the fuck that means. He explains that he can see everything that has ever happened and all that is happening in the present, which should be helpful but only seems to be helpful when it’s convenient for the writers of the story. Rather than explaining or giving examples that make sense, help gain Sansa’s faith in his abilities in a…nicer way, Bran tells Sansa about the night of her wedding, the night she was raped by Ramsay, the beginning of yet another nightmare for her. He tells her how beautiful she was, and I absolutely fucking hate that scene and that dialogue. Of all the things that Bran could tell Sansa, reminding her of her rape, of her trauma, her abuse, regardless of whether Bran is still Bran, is cold, is traumatic, is wrong. As Sansa leaves the Godswood, she stops herself from looking behind her multiple times as if almost afraid of Bran.

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At the Citadel, seems Jorah is completely cured and I guess that’s nice?

The episode ends with two things. At Casterly Rock, the Unsullied lay siege to the castle, but they do so far too easily which worries Grey Worm (as it should), and it turns out to be a trap. Euron’s fleet arrives (such timing) and begins to destroy the Targaryen ships.

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you don’t get to die, you promised Missansei that you’d be back, oi

The army they expected to fight turns out to actually be down south, attacking Highgarden, they slaughter the Tyrells, and the episode ends with a wonderful scene of a conversation between Jaime and Olenna Tyrell. Olenna asks Jaime how he plans on killing her, and Jaime explains that after many long talks with Cersei, who originally wanted to truly hurt Olenna, Jaime was able to convince her to kills Olenna in a kinder, faster and simple way: poison. This is a great scene to watch as we know that Olenna is responsible for the death of Joffrey, it’s deeply satisfying that she is given a gentle death, tricking them all until the end. As Olenna swallows the last drop of her poisoned wine, she tells Jaime that she was the one to kill Joffrey and not Tyrion. As Olenna attempts to make Jaime realise that Cersei will be the end of everyone, including himself, Jaime defends her, making it clear that he continues to be blind to the true nature of his sister. The episode, ending with the realization, ending with Olenna asking Jaime to tell Cersei that it was her so that she knows that she couldn’t get true revenge on her son, and that is a beautiful ending. Although Olenna’s death is one I wasn’t looking forward to considering a number of amazing scenes and dialogue we are given through Diana Rigg’s beautiful acting, this was an amazing way to go.

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7.5/10 – This was a better episode, but it is its ending that helped me forget about the previous episode’s ending, the complete disrespect within the Dorne storyline. Olenna’s badassery and Diana Rigg’s superb acting all throughout the show has been an absolute pleasure, and I will miss her greatly.

<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 4–> SOON


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A Woman on the Internet Reviews A Game of Thrones Season 7 Episode 2: Stormborn

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<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 1: DRAGONSTONE

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 3: THE QUEEN’S JUSTICE –>

This episode begins with who we ended the previous one, Daenerys.

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why are you such a brat?

It doesn’t take too long for Dany to, well, complain, as she seemingly always does, and so I am reminded of my dislike of her. She complains that Dragonstone doesn’t feel like home, and basically that shit isn’t what she expected, but then again most of what she was told of Westeros were either from books or her sneaky, creepy, asshole, rapey brother Viserys, so, I’m not sure where this weird leftover of naivety is coming from, and I’m over it, to be honest. For someone who finally landed where she has worked to be all her life, Dany’s arrival seems incredibly underwhelming to her, like she’s suddenly uninterested, or suddenly disappointed that the seven kingdoms haven’t fallen into her hands as soon as she landed. She, I know I am repeating myself, suddenly calls out Varys from his previous service to King Robert Baratheon, that he went from her father, the Mad King, to him, rather than dying, she calls it disloyalty, he calls it survival. This scene made me angry, it made me see Dany as an inexperienced, cold person who, in the end, doesn’t understand politics nor what it truly requires to survive. Her name has been her shield all her life, she has never had to climb the ladder of life, to hide behind others and build yourself up so survive, she has always had the option of putting herself first, the fact that she doesn’t understand why Varys would give his service to a king that cares about people, even mildly, rather than literally being burned to death, shows her incompetence, but also her utter lack of empathy for people who could stop supporting her if someone else can help them survive better. She demands blind allegiance, Varys wants a leader who cares, the scene remains one that makes me dislike Dany even more than I thought was possible.

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how dare you choose life over death??

As a totally unsurprising move, Daenerys has a visitor that turns out to be Melisandre who, and that ended up really feeling like a lot of convenient bullshit, tells her of the tale of The Prince that was Promised, and it turns out that, TA-DA, the word for “prince” is a genderless term and could mean princess and Melisandre suddenly believes that it could be Dany. It’s silly but whatever keeps you in the game I guess, girl. She then tells Dany of John, of his success up there in the north which Tyrion backs up, and that she should invite him over because he’s cool and all. Daenerys is fine with the idea, but plans on asking Jon to Bend the Knee, I rolled my eyes. Tyrion knows that isn’t going to go very well, too.

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miss me?

Right there we jump to Winterfell right as Jon & Sansa read the raven from Dragonstone with Daenerys’s invitation in it, written by Tyrion, proving it to be legitimate. Sansa talks fondly of Tyrion’s kindness and his non-rapey ways, which is nice I guess, but still thinks it’s a terrible and risky idea for Jon to accept the invitation considering the not so subtle threats in the raven, but Jon is considering it, and I’m on his side once again considering fucking ice zombies are on their goddamn way.

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that dany girl sure sounds friendly

In King’s Landing, Cersei is giving a totally not threatening or desperate speech to the nobles of The Reach about how dangerous and cruel Danaerys and the Mad Kind are, everyone thinks is bullshit and are quick to remind her of Dany’s three full grown dragons. In a scene that I found more or less boring because Jaime bores me, Jaime tries to convince Lord Tarly to be his general, which he refuses considering his sworn oath to House Tyrell (why are you here, then, bro?) Jaime is unconvincing though, and although he promises that when the war is won he’d appoint Lord Tarly as Warden of the South, he really doesn’t seem to give a shit.

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only time i’ll relate to a bunch of white men

Back with my boy Sam back in Oldtown, Archmaester Edrose is basically saying Jorah is a dead man and it’s a done deal. The Archmaester gives Jorah one more day until he is sent to live with The Stone Men, and although Sam proposes he writes to his family to say goodbye, Jorah explains that he doesn’t have anyone to write to. Mehhh.

Back in King’s Landing, Qyburn and Cersei are walking through the Red Keep so that he can show her his idea on how to deal with Daenerys’s dragons, a ballista. I saw it coming, but ok.

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In The Chamber of the Painted Table, Yara, Olenna and Ellaria show the conversation to decide what their next move should be. They both advocate an attack on King’s Landing asap, but Tyrion disagrees, explaining that such a move would entail killing thousands of innocent people.They don’t give a shit, remind him that that is what war is, and Tyrion reminds Ellaria that murdering kids is fucked up but apparently she doesn’t mind. I’m actually incredibly surprised at how unbothered Dany seems to be at this revelation, considering she always seemed to be such an advocate for women and children, anti-slavery, compassion etc, but I guess kids being murdered is ok if the person that does it gets you closer to your throne. Mkay.

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Olenna jumps in and reminds us all how crappy we all are with her awesomeness. She tells Daenerys that all of the nobles in Westeros are pieces of shit and that none will follow her because of the kindness of their hearts. There are a few comebacks that are delicious and it’s a shame that Dany has a council but decides to…not listen to the vast majority of the advice from people who actually live there, so she decides on some other plan we all know will probably fail because she’s a damn brat.

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Now let’s get to the good stuff. Missandei goes to visit Grey Worm to say goodbye before he leaves for Casterly Rock for whatever Dany came up as an excuse for a plan. This scene was incredibly desired, and I know I can speak for a lot of people when I felt relief that this wasn’t yet another tease, that these two ridiculously underestimated character finally get to have a scene together again. Grey Worm explains how the Unsullied were not allowed to have fears, how they were abused to remove whatever weakness they may have, and that she is his. They kiss, and Missandei undresses, expressing her desire to lay with him. Although the fact that he was mutilated as part of becoming a slave/unsullied, causes him to pause her, he eventually allows her in, and their love scene, albeit short, is sweet, awkward, respectful, and shows that nothing stops Grey Worm from being a lover.

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This was really nice, more please

We are ripped from this beautiful scene to go back to Sam in Oldtown who is being scolded by the Archaester because he wants to make sure if there truly isn’t any way to save or help Jorah. He’s told of how dangerous it is, of his inexperience, and that the only person who ever really tried to come up with something ended up dying. Apparently, that doesn’t stop Sam at all who decides that very night to attempt to save Jorah from dying from Greyscale by, well, cutting off all of the affected/infected skin. Which, seems really simple when you think about it. Jorah, obviously wanting to return to Dany, accepts, and we end up watching something oddly squeamish and hot. Maybe that’s just me.  

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what’s your safe word?

We transition to Arya who made a stop and is getting some pie from Hot Pie. There, he tells her how surprised he is to see her there considering that things are all fine in Winterfell and her brother and sister are back home and running things. At first, she doesn’t believe him and I just have a hard time believing that she’s so behind on the news. Shouldn’t it be a big deal? I feel like she would know. Arya right here and there makes the decision, a decision we’ve all waited a number of seasons I forgot to keep track of, to finally go back home. I got heart palpitations.

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go home babygiiiirl

In the meantime in Winterfell, Jon receives Sam’s raven about the Dragonglass at Dragonstone and it strengthens his decision to accept Daenerys’s invitation, especially considering that they need her help, dragons and all. Sansa reminds Jon of their grandfather and uncle’s murder at the hand of The Mad King, everyone backs Sansa’s words, telling Jon that they need him in the north. Jon continues to climb the ladder to my heart, explaining that the north will be fuck all if they lose the war to the others. Sansa accuses him of abandoning the north, their people, her, but he announces that he will be leaving the north in good hands, her hands, and Sansa stops, finally, it seems, feeling recognised as a Stark, as his equal.

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now can you start trusting jon?

Oh yeah, and Littlefinger basically tells Jon that he’s into Sansa and Jon chokes him, which was the best.

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dad would be proud

Nearby, Arya is making a pit stop and hears something approaching her. We finally get something I personally have been wanting since season 1 ended, a face to face with Nymeria, Arya’s now fully grown Direwolf, and her pack, which is something that we never got in the show while we book readers heard about the myth of a she-wolf multiple times in the books. Arya recognises Nymeria and Nymeria recognises Arya. She asks her to come back with her to Winterfell, but Nymeria merely walks away. There we get a little reminder of something said in season 1,”that’s not you” from a conversation Arya and Eddard, where Eddard tells Arya of the husband and children she would one day have, to which Arya said, “that’s not me”. I got some feels.

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We move to Yara and Ellaria where we get some unimportant and ridiculous scenes with the wannabe sand snakes, and then some lovely queerbaiting, right because they are attacked by Euron and his ex-machina fleet. I’m going to skip through most of this battle because, to be honest, it made me upset how much I knew this would happen the moment they attempted to show us what a matriarchy would be through the eyes of male writers, this weird girl power thing with absolutely nothing in it or to it. The Sand Snakes, supposedly badass female fighters, are murdered like little children by motherfucking Euron Greyjoy of all people with little to no effort. Just, nothing. It’s honestly embarrassing. Ellaria and Tyene are kidnapped, so is Yara who fights better than the Sand Snakes (??) but still loses terribly too, arg, motherfucking Euron Greyjoy. As usual, we’re told how badass their female characters are, but when the time arrives, they can’t fight for shit. Euron takes Yara in hostage, and Theon, knowing there is no way he can save anyone, decides to live and jumps ship. A lot of people online strongly criticized Theon for this, calling him a traitor, completely ignoring multiple elements such as the fact that leaving what the smartest decision Theon could have made as taking any step would have meant Yara’s death and his, or the fact that Theon still has severe PTSD from his months long torture, physical and mental, and his physical mutilation at the hand of Ramsay Bolton in the previous season. In that moment, Theon thought clearly and made the right choice. But, the whole battle was trash.

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7/10 – This episode was okay, but the way The Sand Snakes have been completely changed, ruined and then killed off really ruined this episode for me. The Sand Snakes, in the books, are the eight bastard daughters of Oberyn Martell, and incredibly feared female fighters in Dorne. Considering the very few characters of color we get in the show, it was a shame to see these characters be turned into naive, silly little girls who sometimes sort of fight ok, and then as usually turn their sexuality into weapons which isn’t canon and quite frankly just isn’t original at all, especially if you’re going to kill them off so quickly and easily. Bah, that’s the note I’m ending on, hopefully, next episode makes me forget about this nonsense. Hopefully, Yara doesn’t die, I stopped caring about Ellaria.

<–A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 1: DRAGONSTONE

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 3: THE QUEEN’S JUSTICE –>


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A Woman on the Internet Reviews The Monster Inside

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The Monster Inside, a game described as a “noir style audio-visual novella”, created by studio Random Seed Game, the indie game developer from Easter Iowa behind TIMEframe and Lacuna Passage, right off the bat lets you know that it will be a spectacular game from the vibe it gives you the second the title appears.

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The Monster Inside follows the story of a man called Jack, an ex-police officer and struggling detective troubled by nightmares, rough nights and a mystery brought to him at his office by a young woman named Lilly. Right from the start, the game put me into a sort of trance with its enigmatic music (written by Clark Aboud) and it’s absolutely gorgeous style of visuals. Although a short game divided into short seven chapters, The Monster Inside ultimately is indeed an audio-visual novella rather than the detective game I sort of which it could have been, not due to a lack in the game itself, but rather because by the end of its 10 to 15 minutes of “gameplay”, I wanted to know more, more about the characters, about the story, its universe, I wanted to continue experiencing whatever feeling I was feeling, curiosity. Although short and limited, the game does offer you some gameplay/interaction through conversations and choosing what to reply or ask at times, whatever animation they decided to put in some scenes added a little something that felt just perfect, and I (sadly) clicked and read my way through the game and its story quickly, fascinated, curious, until I had reached its end.

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10/10 – There’s not that much that I can add without giving some portion of the story away. But what I can say is that I highly recommend The Monster Inside. It is a quick read, a quick but fantastic experience with a little something-something I expected due to its striking visuals. I could feel that it was going to be something nice, and it was just that and some more. I can only hope that Random Seed Game gives us more of these types of game, perhaps a sequel for The Monster Inside, perhaps a series of similarly styled short audio-visual novella. A woman can only hope.

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P.S: The 4 tracks of the game are available on soundcloud so make sure to check these out because the music was so very lovely. It can be found here: https://goo.gl/BYJz3x
The Monster Inside, currently available for free on:

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A Woman on the Internet Reviews A Game of Thrones Season 7 Episode 1: Dragonstone

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A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN–>

And we’re back! Season 7! One more after this one and it’s done. We are beyond the books, who knows what’s going to happen now. I’m intrigued and also worried, but isn’t that what Game of Thrones has always done to us?

For this episode I do wish we hadn’t gotten a flashback of the previous season as it sort of ruins a little bit of the surprise to come, I wish they had done a simple cold opening, I wonder why they chose not to.

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We continue where we left the previous season, sort of, with Walder Frey as The Twins. Walder Frey is being a piece of shit as usual until his speech turns sour and the entirety of his guests are murdered, poisoned by the wine that had been served. Walder removes his face a la Scooby-gang and it is revealed that Arya is the one responsible for that absolutely majestic slaughter. Although the flashback and, well, my memory sort of spoiled the surprise, I did have butterflies in my stomach and shivers as Arya said: “Tell them the north remembers. Tell them winter came for house Fray”. Finally, some satisfaction has given us through most probably the absolute best opening to any Game of Thrones episode so far.

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We then move onto my fav Bran who is busy actually giving a shit about legit shit, the others, who are marching towards the wall with business right on schedule. I admit I was quite surprised to see Bran and Meera at gate of Castle Black, mostly because the previous season had ended with such a tragic end, but also because, well, everything was a mess and I just didn’t know where Meera was going, and how she could possibly make it to that wherever. The brothers doubt Bran’s identity and Bran lets Edd Tollett in on some information, as well as information about the others, they are let in and I’m nearly gagging over the prospect of a Bran & the other Starks reunion. Please just let them be a family again, my heart just can’t take it.

 

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At Winterfell, Jon, now King in the North, is giving orders to his bannermen, including everyone as soon as possible, and absolutely everyone, including women and girls. My little heart tingled all over at that moment, as the men whine and complain, worry about their little girls, as Lyanna motherfucking Mormont lets them know that she isn’t going stand idle while men die, she will fight for a country that is just as hers as anyone.

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Jon and Sansa have a pretty public disagreement on what to do with the Umbers and KArstarks who has previously turned against the Starks and fought for the Boltons. Sansa wants to strip them of their title and homes while Jon reminds her that the people responsible for those decisions are dead, and the children should not pay for their parent’s mistakes. For what is most likely the first time, I disagree with Sansa and strongly agree with Jon. The children representing the Umbers and the Karstarks swear their loyalty, Sansa mopes around, Littlefingers creeps. In a moment of what seems to be momentary utter memory loss, Sansa tells Jon that his refusal to consider her opinion (which isn’t what he has done at all) is similar to Joffrey, something she takes back right away. Girl, you need to chill. They talk about the past, about their father and how they were raised, how she dislikes that Jon wants to protect her from things by not telling her all that is, how she dislikes not being as included in the decision making. Although I see where she is coming from, her perspective does not reflect reality, that is not what is happening.

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girl you need to chill, listen to him for a sec and what is going on with ur wig (?!)

The conversation is ended by a raven from Cersei demanding that they bend the knee, Jon brushes it off, Sansa attempts to explain that Cersei is relentless, that she cannot be dismissed, that she will never stop, that nothing can get in the way, that vengeance is what she does. Jon asks Sansa if she admires her.

 

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Talking of Cersei, we jump to King’s Landing where Cersei is…having a map of Westeros painted and I just don’t understand why? Jaime attempts to talk about Tommen’s suicide, I’m sort of curious too, but she brushes it off. Her children are now dust and she cannot think or worry about dust. It’s cold, even for Cersei. They talk about Daenerys and where she could possibly land, Jaime demonstrates having brains that Cersei apparently totally lacks by going for…well for the pretty logical assumption, Dragonstone, Dany’s birthplace. Jaime tells Cersei the obvious, they are losing the war, they have no allies, people have her and she was never meant to be ginger so why is there so much red in her hair?! Why is Dany blonde?! Where are her silver locks, why are her eyebrows black, I am losing it and these are the questions that matter.

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Sorry.

Somehow Cersei thinks it’s a great idea to unite with the Greyjoy. Jaime thinks it’s a bullshit idea, so do I. Nasty fucking Euron Greyjoy arrives and just, does whatever Euron does, just vomit mouth diarrhea. He complains about his niece and nephew’s betrayal like he isn’t betrayal incarnated, he boasts about his fleet (and I have no idea how he built a fleet in what seems to be a few weeks, considering, they stole the fleet and there are no trees on Pyke??) Euron proposes his allegiance in exchange for Cersei’s hand in marriage, she says no, he’s not even bothered and simply promises to return with a gift that will change her mind. I need a shower.

 

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We then get one of the most interesting few scenes out of Game of Thrones so far, a montage of Sam’s new and exciting life in the citadel of Oldtown, where his life mostly revolves around putting books away in the library, serving meals and emptying chamber pots. A lot of shit in those chamber pots. To be honest, that montage eventually grossed me out and I was glad when it was over, but kudos for doing something a little different in this 7th season. Sam is tired of his life, and I absolutely 100% get him after that nasty montage. He longingly stares at the restricted section of the library and I starting thinking about how bomb Harry Potter is. Sam asks his Archmaester about having access to that section of the library but is turned down due to his status as, well, not an archmaester. Sam talks of the Others and the archmaester surprises him by letting him know that he actually believes him as well as the night watch, yet, he does not believe that the wall would fall, or that their world would end. This is a great scene, we get some information about Westeros’s past, I wish Game of Thrones would do more scenes like this one, but oh well. That night, Sam decides to steal the key and enters the restricted section.

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Back in Winterfell, Sansa is watching Brienne fight like the boss that she is. Tormund is also watching, and I continue to have mixed feelings about these two. Littlefinger approaches Sansa to do what Littlefinger does best, creep creepily. He attempts to questions Sansa’s safety at Winterfell, to which she replies that Brienne and Jon, her brother (I almost cried, I don’t know why) are there and that she is the safest here, with them. LIttlefinger then questions Sansa’s happiness, to which she replies that all she wishes is peace and quiet, interrupting him in his attempt to respond, that she’ll just assume it would be something clever. When Brienne comes to check on Sansa and ask what Littlefinger is still doing at Winterfell and what it is that he could possibly want, Sansa says that she knows what that thing is. I truly wish I knew what was going on in Sansa’s head. My heart is in shambles, stop making me question you, baby girl!

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stop making every worry about you!!

Arya, who is on the road to someplace, decides to accept the invitation of random dudes who were sitting by, and have a snack with her because Westeros is totally the safest place and men are even safer companions to have at your side. Yes. Yes. Ed Sheran is there, twitter spoiled that for me and honestly, I don’t understand why I should care in the slightest, he stands out and so does his song, please just go north girl, you said you were going home! I watched the scene with a lot of tension. Oftentimes in Game of Thrones, when a woman reaches a high peak in power she may hold, the show makers decide to write a rape scene, even if it isn’t in the books, such as with Cersei, and then Sansa. I watched because the show does not give me safety, Arya has yet to have a rape scene, and Maisie Williams is now of legal age, so, I watch anxiously. The is no rape scene though, the talk nonchalantly and Maisie tells them that she is going to King’s Landing to kill the queen, they laugh, not believing, but we know this to be the truth.

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We then move on to what was one of my favourite scene of the episode, which isn’t that surprising anymore as Sandor has become a fan’s favourite for a lot of the show’s fans. Sandor, still chilling & hanging with the Brotherhood without Banners, isn’t exactly down with Winter, remember, it’s finally here. They stop at an abandoned house for some rest where they find the remains of a man and a little girl, a man and a girl Sandor had encountered in the previous season with Arya, they deduct that the father killed his girl and himself afterwards, perhaps knowing that they were going to die of starvation anyway. Sandor is disturbed, and although he and Beric have an interesting conversation about whether or not there is any divine justice, Sandor is asked to look into the fire. Unconvinced, doubtful at first, Sandor eventually sees something. He sees a wall of ice, a castle, a mountain and then an army, the army of the Others. In the middle of the night, Sandor is found digging a grave through the snow in which to lay the Farmer and his daughter’s bones. It’s there that I realize how much he has changed, how far away The Hound is from this man.

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We return one last time to Sam, still at the Citadel. Night after night he has gone through the bones he took from the restricted section, finding nothing, and finding even sleep. He eventually finds information about Dragonglass and learns that dragonglass can be found at Dragonstone, a mountain of it. He immediately writes a letter to Jon. In the morning, we suddenly briefly realize that, as Sam walks through the Sanitorium, Jorah is in one of the rooms. He reaches out to Sam and we see the advancement of his Greyscale.

The episode, unsurprisingly, ends with Daenerys landing to Westeros. It’s difficult not to breathe alongside her, not to feel the strong beating of your heart accelerating as the music plays and as Dany finally reaches the shore, sets foot, after 6 long seasons, and her entire life spent away from her birthplace, where so much history took place.

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Although still not an active fan of Dany, this scene is a beautiful one, a dialogue-free one, nothing needs to be said, we watch as Dany walks towards the castle through the hundred of steps, through gate after gate, door after door, enormous status of dragons everywhere representing the undeniable history of her family line, of what she feels in her heart is hers.

 

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At the entry of the throne room, she calmly rips off a Baratheon banner and enters, but rather than sitting on the throne as some would expect, Dany continues to enter the Chamber of the Painted Table, or the war room if you’d like, her only words being: “Shall we begin”. Yeah, ok, fine, I totally did get goosebumps.

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alrighty then

9/10 – To be honest, although there is a mountain worth of things that I could criticize about Game of Thrones, this episode felt good, there was more than one scene that stood out to be as excellent, and I cannot wait for episode 2, which is always something I hope for, for the desire for more to come to me by the end of the episode. This annoying feeling of having to wait a week, wondering, especially knowing that we are well past the books, that, as a book reader, I can only guess, hope, assume, as of now. I know nothing.

A GAME OF THRONES, SEASON 7, EPISODE 2: STORMBORN–>


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A Woman on the Internet Reviews The Lion’s Song Episode 3: Derivation

 

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 2: ANTHOLOGY

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 4: CLOSURE – SOON –>

Once in a while there are some games that add unexpected layers to their stories.

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Although the subjects in The Lion’s Song: Derivation were interesting and important ones, I was ultimately distracted and touched by a demonstration of respect and a diversity of experiences that I, even if I have to repeat myself, was truly unexpected, but that I welcomed with very open arms.

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In Derivation, we follow the Story of Emma, a mathematician, who, although when the story begins experiences a tragedy of her own, right away sets to enter a famous and respected club of fellow mathematician and like-minded thinkers. Due to being a woman, Emma is laughed at, her role and place as a woman are reminded to her and her capacity to think critically are doubted, if not denied altogether. Of course, following in the footsteps of interesting characters that The Lion’s Song’s studio Mi’pu’mi Games has given us thus far, Emma does not stop there. She decides to dress as a man and finish the equation the men have so far been unable to complete, to prove herself not only as a Mathematician but a Mathematician who also happens to be a woman.

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But Emma’s struggle and inner turmoil do not solely revolve around her many attempts to enter the club, or to prove herself to who she sees as who should be her peers. She also struggles with her personal loss, her grief, and confusing feelings she experiences in regards to who she is, feelings triggered by her disguising herself as a man day after day, going by the name of Emil, a name that, depending on the game you play, she feels fits her just as well as Emma or maybe even more.

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The identity of Emma as Non-binary isn’t simply hinted at, it is a core subject of the story, it is something always on the main of the main character and appears in many of the conversations that Emma has with people, something she either cannot hide or doesn’t feel like she has to hide. For the sake of truly respecting the character and ultimately non-binary folks in general, I will refer to Emma with They/Them for the rest of this review considering that, in my playthrough at least, Emma is as much Emma as they are Emil, neither male or female, or perhaps both, maybe simply sitting in the middle, or entirely out off the box.

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I have asked the followers of A Woman on the internet, specifically non-binary/genderfluid/agender folks, how they would define or describe those “identities” (I put this in quotes since a lot of people don’t see it only as an identity but simply who they are). The general responses revolve around comfort and simply not sitting in either box marked “woman” or “man” but also not necessarily in the middle, some connect to femininity more on one day and the next day will feel some other way, some reject the notion of man or woman and simply exist as the human being that they are, however, the general person might want to define them.

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In many instances though, such as the one that I saw while playing The Lion’s Song: Derivation, was that some people might connect more to one thing more than the other, such as Emma eventually ending the game as Emil, remaining dressed in a suit, and even though they have expressed comfort as either, Emma chooses to experience life as Emil, as this was the most comfortable way for them to be, the most genuine Emma/Emil. They are many things that I could say about Derivation. I could talk about the casual sexism that Emma experiences when not going about as Emil, but to be quite frank that is not the story that Derivation has left me to be haunted with.

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That is not what I keep thinking about, what truly made me feel, what I’ve learned. There are already stories of women who experience casual racism and the struggles of cis white women in the 20th century, these are not stories entirely new. But Emma’s realization of their own identity as Emil, whether triggered by their loss or by having to dress “as a man” to have their intelligence recognized ultimately I am not sure this matters, Emma is Emil and Emil is Emma and maybe Emil is the truest self, maybe there are no selves truer than the other. What The Lion’s song had given us in this story is something I personally never experienced through another game, not in such a forward way.

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So when I finished the game and an achievement popped up called “non-binary” with the description being: “Prove that there are many possible states and everything is in flux”
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I smiled, and right here and there, studio Mi’pu’mi Games reminded me why I love video games.

10/10: in this third episode of The Lion’s Song, we thought we were given a story of 20th-century sexism and the beauty and art and mathematics, but instead, we experienced a beautiful story of a non-binary person finding themselves and ultimately, finding peace.

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<–THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 2: ANTHOLOGY

THE LION’S SONG, EPISODE 4: CLOSURE – SOON –>

Big life change 10/07/2017

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As some of you may already know due to my announcement on the AWOTI FB page earlier today, I lost my job today. I dont want to get into specifics since I dont want people to figure out who my employer was etc, but what I can say was that this is the result of a multitudes of breaks I’ve had to take recently (the trip to Morocco, being stuck in Paris for an extra 9 days, breaks I took when we moved place & the many times I couldnt do the work due to my unstable health). This creates a lot of changes and a lot of uncertainty in my life at the moment as while I try to look for a new job, a job that fits my needs and limitations (I’ve been working from home for 5+ years) I don’t know how I will make it financially both in regardless to the basic things we all have to pay, rent, bills, necessities, but also all things relating to my health like medication and appointments with healthcare professionals. This is me asking for your help and support, both emotionally as well as financially, as I try to figure it out. Consider becoming a Patron to my Patreon, or donating to my PayPal to ensure that the page is kept up as I’m not sure if I’ll be able to continue if I am obligated to get a 9-5 job out of my house, and see how that affects my health, and how I used to live/freelance.

Aurelie

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A Woman on the Internet reviews Ma Vie de Courgette/My Life as a Zucchini {SPOILER FREE}

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There is something about animated movies that connects with me, a connection that I rarely if ever experience with live action movies. It’s been my experience that when it comes to animated movies, Studio Ghibli is the best, no other studio compares, but when it comes to stopmotion, they are gems scattered across the world, gems you either have to look for, or find.


This Swiss and French movie, My Life as a Zucchini, is one of those gems.

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We sat on our couch on a rainy and wet Saturday afternoon and popped in My Life as a Zucchini which we had rented a few days prior but had forgotten about, we knew nothing of the movie other than the fact that it was stopmotion, our emotions were scrambled like morning eggs mere seconds into the movie.

My Life as a Zucchini offers a type of story that both adults and kids can enjoy or relate to, although it is quite dark, even with it’s lighter moments here and there. It follows the story of Icare aka Courgette (or Zucchini if you watch it in english?) whose home life environment is abusive and who eventually after an event takes place, gets placed into an orphanage. The story follows Courgette, the emotions he experiences, his relationship with the other kids in the orphanage, and their daily life, until a new kid arrives, Camille. My Life as a Zucchini does a beautiful job of introducing us to a variety of children with a variety of issues, dark pasts, realistic and touching personalities. From hints of sexual abuse, to drug abuse, deportation, the movies offers a cast of children who, although adorable, are profoundly real and relatable.

Throughout the movie, the story and the music allows us to stick with it’s very melancholic and calming tone, the children’s voices, the glimmer in the puppet’s eyes, all of the moments of silence, you spend the entirety of the movie forgetting that these are puppets and not real life children attempting to heal each other’s wounds as well as their own.

10/10 – I cried so many times, sometimes from sadness, sometimes from happiness, and sometimes simply because I was so profoundly touched. I related too much, and when it came to things I could not relate to, I empathized in ways I only seem to do with these gems of animation.

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